Is there a difference between being flirty or too friendly?

..because sometimes when i think about it, i think they both are almost the same esp. when it's towards the opposite sex.

one thing i hate about being married to a military man is that they can't always tell you everything that they do. okay, i've accepted that. but one of the things that bug me most is when they dont come home when they say they will. of course that is the usual for military lives but UGH!

i just want to rant off my feelings that i have just brushed off for the past month.

i think i just don't know my husband as well as i think i do or i've just forgotten how he is since we don't have many conversations anymore. it's so sad i feel like i want to resort to other things to fill in that space.

when i come to think of it, we really don't have much in common but that has always been us. BUT idk. if we can't find common ground i don't know what to do. i feel like everytime i have something to say to him, he NEVER listens and it gets on my damn nerves. later on he will tell me the exact same thing i told him and say that he just found that out, and i will tell him that i told him that before. UGH!!

a lot of days now i just find myself wanting to go out more with friends or do something that will make me stop thinking of this. it is starting to scare me that we can't find common ground. i really do love him, its just..i am such an outgoing-always trying something new-love hanging out kinda person. ..not stay at home and watch my husband play xbox while i watch baby all day wife.

and i will admit that whenever i see him being friendly i guess i take it in differently. probably because i don't feel the same anymore. *sigh* i dont know why i feel like i can't trust him. is it a different part of my life that i am going through again?

Flower Girl

I tried to do the whole Geisha thing but it didn't work. My face isn't round so the contouring and everything just looked weird.

Face - everyday minerals in Winged Butter intensive

Living Doll blush from Hard Candy

Elf contour bronzer on nose bridge

Lips-Revlon's Fusia moon drop lipstick

Eyebrows-Wet n' Wild kohl brow/liner pencil in dark brown

Eyes-urban decay's book of shadows -scandal and absinthe

Model 21 Lashes

I wonder...

..what my two boys are up to! Keenan looks cross eyed in here lol. Mommy made him smile for the picture. He looovees mommy.

Zesty Tortilla Wrap - A healthy low calorie meal!

I have found a new love for..whole wheat tortillas! This wrap is super easy to make and it tastes great!

Ingredients used: La Tortilla Factory whole wheat tortillas (only 80 calories per wrap!)

-Hellman's Light mayo

-Sams Club canned chicken breast

-Spinach

-Tomatoes

-Taco Seasoning
-Cilantro

-First you will want to put half a tablespoon of mayo in a small bowl and mix about a teaspoon of taco seasoning into the mayo and stir it well. This gives it that zesty flavor instead of having to use ranch or other dressings, and it sticks.

-Take one of the wraps and place it on a plate, then spread the mayo. Afterwards add the chicken breasts on there (i open a can and use my hands to break the chicken into shredded pieces).

-Add tomatoes, spinach, and cilantro afterwards and wrap it! The cilantro gives it a mexican-dish flavor that pairs up with the taco seasoned mayo.

If you want to make it a meal, pair it up with Lay's light chips that are only 70 calories for each serving. The average chips are 150 + calories per serving. Then drink some crystal light with your meal. (..yes i am a calorie counter)

Usually one makes me full but feel free to have 2 if you'd like. ..and I usually eat this for lunch. It is about 300 calories depending on how many chips I munch on. Crystal light packets have been a staple in my diet since forever. They are low calorie and besides that, I can't even stand drinking soda. It burns my throat so i'm really sensitive to it and I don't like the feeling it leaves on my teeth afterwards.

Have a happy healthy day! =)

Tijuana Flats and Camera Talk

Grubbing at Tijuana Flats. This was our first time there so we didn't know what to order. Well I did..only because I checked out their nutritional info and their steak burrito was under 400 calories so I decided to get it. It didn't look as appealing as my husbands dish! Keenan was excited to see all the food lol.

Flautas! These were so good and crispy. My husband asked one of the workers how to eat these! LOL i was like what the.. She said to dip it in the queso and then into the veggies. Why do the good things in life have to be fattening? :P

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CAMERA TALK!

I have been getting a lot of questions about my camera and camera suggestions.

First off let me say that I went to college for half a year for photography. Although it wasn't long, it taught me much about exposures and shutter stops. I've worked with shooting studio pictures and outdoor events. ..and if you know me, i hate shooting weddings! Only because they are long and it is very demanding.

My first SLR (single lens reflect) camera that I ever owned was a Nikon. It wasn't digital but it was a good practice. I learned how to develop photos in black rooms and the whole ordeal. Then I got married after I left and my husband bought me my first digital SLR which was the Nikon D40. I must say this and it is important, that if you want a digital SLR and have never worked with them, get this or a Canon Rebel low grade. The ones that cost under $600. They are definitely worth it in my opinion because they have an Auto function that allows you to point and shoot.

My second one after the D40 was a Nikon D300. It ranges anywhere from $1000 -$1300 for the body alone. This camera is semi-professional. It's not up there with the top notches but it definitely has a ton of awesome functions. It was really heavy which I hated but it took awesome pictures. This camera does not have an auto function and you have to manually do everything.

And now I have my Canon Xt1. It is awesome because it has an auto function and HD recording. I can record videos of Keenan and take some sweet pictures. The price range is not bad either, $800-$900 for a camcorder and camera in one.

Digital Cameras-------

I have owned a number of them in my life. If you can find one that has a macro option, that is good for taking up close pictures. The zoom on digital cameras are important for that also. My favorite brand of digital cameras is Canon. Canons and Nikons are constantly competing. Nikons have gotten better, but what I can mostly say about the digital cameras is that the face detection is an important option. If you are looking to print pictures constantly, you want more megapixels.

Boba on A Saturday Adventure

I had real boba's in my boba tea today and I couldn't stop popping them in my mouth! I've always just had tapioca pearls in my drinks but I never knew these existed..lol. We went to the mall today and saw the new shop there so we checked it out. I got the yogurt boba's in coconut drink. The boba's tasted like lychee even though it said yogurt..but i love lychee so i don't have a problem with that.

I promised Keenan that I'd take him to the mall to walk around since he loves being in his carrier/wrap.

He loved just staring at the lights on the carousel.

There were lights at the arcade so of course we went there and Keenan just kept staring. He loves lights..i can't wait for him to see the Christmas tree!

my w lazies.. =)

my favorite pictures of us..he likes being on his belly now and he looks like his daddy in this picture!

..and then there is us. I really think he has grown attached to me..almost to a point where if I walk away he will cry. One of the best feelings in the world..is knowing that he knows I am his mom.

Perdido Keys Wedding pictures

These are a few pictures that I took from the wedding I went to in Perdido Keys here in Florida with my friend Summer who was their photographer. She rescued me from going insane and took me out for some awesome mexican food and strawberry margaritas!

The cake was my favorite thing about the wedding. The peachy color of the flowers were so splendid.

I love lanterns and they had a few hanging up in their tent.

I was being nosy and we found the garter before the bride put them on and took pictures of them.

Again..taking pictures of details, I thought this dragonfly was fake and a part of the design but I saw it twitch a little and told Summer to take a look at it! It was huge! scary too haha.

They rented a nice beach house and the wedding was in the backyard of it. Too bad it was so cold.

NYX Pink Sparkle Lipgloss & Rant

I found this sitting in the guest bathroom drawer the other day. I totally forgot I had it and threw it on the lips immediately.

That's me wearing it. This is the usual look I wear everyday, even though I stay at home with Keenan all day, I still get some makeup on my face because it makes me more productive thoughout the day and not lazy. I wear mineral makeup when i'm home because i'm not out in the humid sweating it out. Still lovin' the new camera.

My lil man and me. I really really really love him. As much as a buttmunch he can be, I fall in love all over again with him by the littlest things he does. He still knocks out when I put him to sleep on my chest. He drools so much it's nasty! But when he sees me and smiles, my frown turns upside down. I am glad he knows who his mama is!

--Lately i've just been sick of things! My husband goes to school early in the morning and comes home late at night, sleeps on the couch, and barely spends time with Keenan. He will be graduating his ALS school this Thursday and I can't wait. I am just sick of feeling like i'm doing this on my own and honestly I feel like there's no point of him coming home at all if he's not going to be around us. It's probably my anger speaking right now but I am just sick of it!

Chicken Noodle Soup for ..the stressed!

My ideal comfort food is usually a nice hot soup, not straight out from the can. Once in a while I will turn to sweets, but most of the time I will want soup to comfort me on my days that i've just had enough bullshit.

Ingredients for the lovin':

-your choice of chicken parts, as long as it's got some meat on it! i used chicken thighs because that's all we had, and the meat is super soft.

-1 can of chicken broth

-1/2 onion diced

-carrots (i used matchstick carrots b/c that's all we had lol and i didn't want chunks of it in the soup either)

-salt

-mushroom seasoning or MSG SUBSITUTE

-cilantro (optional)

-egg noodles

Directions: Heat up the pot of your choice to a medium temp. and put a dab of oil in it, then put the diced onions in it. You want to sweat your onions, not fry them. By doing this you are releasing the flavor of the onions. Throw in the carrots and let them get a coating of the oil too. Then after they look like they've been sweated enough, throw the chicken in and let that cook just a bit. When that is done, pour in the can of chicken broth and let it boil for a bit to get all the flavors concentrated. Afterwards fill up the pot with water and let it boil. Once it starts boiling, add a generous amount of salt and mushroom seasoning. I let mine boil for a good 30 minutes. Keep tasting it to see how much salt/seasoning you want in it. You should have a nice chicken broth flavor.

Cook the egg noodles in a seperate pot and strain them when they are done. Put them in a bowl and pour the broth over and serve!

The soup is refreshing and it doesn't have a nasty syrup taste like most soups do in a can :P It's also more healthy because you get to see what you are adding into it. I put cilantro in mine because it gives it a different kick.

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I recently went to a wedding with my friend Summer from Shooke Photography. She let me take some pictures with my camera and I had a blast with her. She is so creative and awesome! I'll post up my pictures later on when I am done editing them. Stay tuned..

My Imperfections make me who I am.

I've always believed that you can't love anyone until you can really learn to love yourself. The qualities about me that I love are:

1. I am nice. I approach things in a peaceful way and avoid drama. I do not like to be loud or rude, and I most of the time keep my mouth shut even if I have dirty things to say.

2. I can be friends with just about anyone.

3. I love that when I love someone, I will do almost anything for them..aka the hubs.

4. I always make sure to keep in mind my main goal/target.

5. I respect everyone even if I do not like them.

My Imperfections that I have learned to accept:

acne scars (until there is a cream that actually works!), uneven skin tone, huge craters in my pores (well one here and there), my small upper lip that will never be plump, my eyelids that can't decide whether they want to be monolids or double lids, all the beauty marks on my face ( i have probably over 6 of them), my saggy boobs (it happens from breastfeeding!), my thick thighs that i can never seem to be rid of, the stretch marks on my belly from having keenan, and discolorations on certain areas of my body.

I've learned to live with them and there are things that can cover them up, or fix it for a bit, but most of the time they will always be there. The best part about it is that when my husband saw all of it, he still thought I was beautiful. Without the crazy makeup or hair, the best friend and wife he saw in me shined through it all. He's made me learn how to feel beautiful without any of it.

Seoul Garden serves some of the best Korean Food!

We love this place because of their service and great tasting food! We've been to a number of Korean restaurants and this one by far serves the best bulgogi.

You can click to enlarge. My husband usually orders the chicken bulgogi and it always looks perfect everytime we order!

I usually love eating their BiBimBap but I decided to try this. I think it was called Sup Kup Chae, can't remember but it was a spicy soup with seafood and tofu. It was pretty good.

and my favorites..banchan! I usually just love going here because of the side dishes. I can eat them alone with rice. My favorite one if usually the kimchee cucumbers.

My Chunk of Love

Went to the park today with the baby. He loved it. look at his drool! lol

My Big Baby Boy

Keenan..in his size 12M pajamas! He'll be 4 months on the 30th! what a baby!

i just loove him. silly silly boy

and just a pair of heels

this blog is random. :P

Birthday Gift from the hubs and pictures!!!

He bought me a Canon Rebel T1i. I believe it was recently launched and...it records videos! ..in HD! sweet huh? It's a 2-in-1 especially since we've got baby keenan, this is going to come in handy. The videos are so awesome though, I personally think I enjoy it more than taking pictures haha. I love everything about it and my husband was sweet for doing this. He really didn't have to.

Taken with the canon..the clarity! Well as most DSLR's will do, but it's a major difference from my ..kodak lol. Can you see the flawlessness of Maybelline's super stay 24hr foundation? i love it!

A few pictures I took.

Yes, I am so glad to have photography run through my blood again. Thanks to Summer! I missed having an dslr around.

Prizes from Hello Denysia's Giveaway

I got my package and was extremely happy! I felt like I was in the Sanrio store!

She put some goodies in here..

Paul and Joe's light cleansing milk sample and Korres samples!

A super cute munjunkin mirror, some bandaids and floss picks. My husband laughs at me and says, "she sent you some floss?!" and i'm like, "babe..it's all about hello kitty k!"

RMK's mascara, Majolica Majorca palette, and Paul and Joe's face color. All of these are so pretty!

Swatches..

and a few sample packets.

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nothing new lately, just trying to get fit for the holidays still. i had a pregnancy scare again. geez. there's a belief in the hmong culture that if you dream of getting bit by a snake that you're pregnant or someone you know is pregnant. i didn't want it to get to my head since you have a slim chance of getting pregnant on the paragard, but i took a test just to ease my mind. haha

HARD CANDY SWATCHES! + Colorvue Glamour Green Lenses

Hard Candy at Wal-Mart! Prices range from $5-$9. They've got a ton of stuff there that I have yet to try. I called and asked when they would have it and the stupid guy told me in the middle of the month, but I went there yesterday and to my surprise, it was there already! I was like OMG! I stood there forever trying to think of what I want. So I came up with these 4 so far. They have so much stuff, and FYI this replaced Max Factors spot.

Eyeshadow Duo $6

The eyeshadow was really pretty BUT it broke on me. Talk about you get what you pay for. The packaging for everything is soo cute, but I was mad that this broke into pieces after taking this picture. They've got other sets of eyeshadows too.

The pigmentation is great, I can probably say its the same consistency as Mac's mineralize quad I got.

Blush $7

This is a pink pink with a silver undertone. Talk about glow! Very pigmented, you don't need much to get color on your skin.

Yummmm :P They've got 3 other colors that I want to get.

Their tinted lip balm $5.

I love! It is sheer but I might just have to say a little bit more than that. It goes on buttery smooth and gives my lips a bit of a nude pink look. There is no smell or taste. I bought this one in "Jenny".

Their mascara was $6 I think. This one, I do not like. The brush looked wonderful but it barely did anything to my lashes. Sorta reminded me of what great lash does to my lashes..nothing! hahaha

Colorvue Glamour in Green. LOVE IT!

I am wearing Living Doll on my cheeks and Jenny on my lips. haha..jenny on my lips how funny :P

Overall, these products are definitely worth a try. i know a number of people who refuse to shop at wal-mart but i don't care. i definitely save more money shopping there. i never attempted to buy any Jemma Kidd or Pixi products from target..and I really don't know how well they're doing either. they're products are more expensive than Mac. I just wanted to get that off my mind.

anyways enjoy!