..because sometimes when i think about it, i think they both are almost the same esp. when it's towards the opposite sex.
one thing i hate about being married to a military man is that they can't always tell you everything that they do. okay, i've accepted that. but one of the things that bug me most is when they dont come home when they say they will. of course that is the usual for military lives but UGH!
i just want to rant off my feelings that i have just brushed off for the past month.
i think i just don't know my husband as well as i think i do or i've just forgotten how he is since we don't have many conversations anymore. it's so sad i feel like i want to resort to other things to fill in that space.
when i come to think of it, we really don't have much in common but that has always been us. BUT idk. if we can't find common ground i don't know what to do. i feel like everytime i have something to say to him, he NEVER listens and it gets on my damn nerves. later on he will tell me the exact same thing i told him and say that he just found that out, and i will tell him that i told him that before. UGH!!
a lot of days now i just find myself wanting to go out more with friends or do something that will make me stop thinking of this. it is starting to scare me that we can't find common ground. i really do love him, its just..i am such an outgoing-always trying something new-love hanging out kinda person. ..not stay at home and watch my husband play xbox while i watch baby all day wife.
and i will admit that whenever i see him being friendly i guess i take it in differently. probably because i don't feel the same anymore. *sigh* i dont know why i feel like i can't trust him. is it a different part of my life that i am going through again?