Sunday, May 8, 2011

A Time To Think About My Mom

Yes, it's Mother's Day and it's a good day!  I'm going to start off by saying that I love you Mom, for everything we've been through and how hard you work for us. 

My mom, best cook I know - cheerful - strong - brave - hard working - and so much more.  She too, was a stay at home mom for many years with 4 kids.  I don't know how she did it, I tell her all the time that i'm nowhere nearly as strong as she was with us.  I go crazy with Keenan!  Haha..  But seriously, my mom and I never had the best relationship.

Growing up, I was attached to my mom.  I cried everyday going to Kindergarden in fear i'll never see my mom again.  I was always happy to be home, come home to her cooking and just be around her.  I knew very little of the real drama that was happening between my family.  My parents were very good at hiding it from me and my youngest sister. 

We moved away from California and that's when things sorta went crazy with my parents.  I sort of lost touch with everything.  We moved again and in high school I stopped caring about my education because my parents had so much drama going on, I felt like there was nothing to prove.  I BS'd my way through high school, and honestly I really hated it.  That's when all the drama between my mom and me started.  I chopped off my past my butt hair, got a boyfriend, skipped school..  All the things she didn't want.  In some ways I guess I could say I wanted the negative attention, mostly from my parents though. 

This happened until I met my husband, who at the time was my boyfriend.  He was the ultimate NO NO to them.  I won't say why on here but my parents tried a lot of things to get me to stop dating him.  But seriously, this time I wasn't doing this to get the bad attention, it was really because I found him to be what I want.  He was serious, didn't live with his parents, independent.  Anyways, some of you know this already but I ranaway and got married to him.  Til this day I still don't regret it.)

Well after being a stay at home wife, I realized how much hard work my mom did around the house and working.  Laundry, cooking, cleaning - she did that all on top of working.  She did my laundry til I was 16.  Seriously.  I started calling her and telling her that I missed her and I love her for all the hard things I've put her through.  It was a whole new side to our relationship.  It's been so great because as weird as this sounds, she is sort of my friend now haha.  I can tell her things and she won't tell my dad or she'll keep it to herself and she gives me advice that friends would, from an adult point of view.  Not only that but she loves Walley.  Not fair sometimes haha, but she wants the best for us. 

I know she won't get to read this, but she'll be here in a month or so for keenan's 2nd birthday.  We're all excited.  I love you so much can watch as much youtube here when you get here.  :)


xoladiihoneyxo said...

Aww... I understand about bullshitting your way through high school; I did it my first year in high school just because I wanted to get some attentions from my parents ALTHOUGH I was still a good girl c[= Just hanged out later than I was suppose and more than suppose to. teehee. Its alright, since now, you're relationship with her has gotten better. Plus, when we're young, we don't really know whats going on in the world, we just assume things as what we see but not behind it. Happy Mother's Day dear! I hope your little one isn't giving you so much of a trouble today ;]

glitteryeyesxx said...

Leslie, you are a beautiful and loving mother! Keenan and Walley are blessed to have you. I see how dedicated you are to your family, and it's so admirable. I can't wait to be a mother one day, you make it look so fun =)

Ashley said...

That was lovely!!