Thursday, July 21, 2011

ugh no pictures or anything, but i just wanted to blog because i've been thinking a lot.

one thing first, as a mommy you should always go with your gut instinct.  keenan wasn't feeling good for a while and my husband was telling me to hold off going to urgent care because it seemed like he was getting better.  my gut instinct was to take him because he wasn't feeling like his jolly ole self.  well i took him when my husband was at work and they found a small start of pneumonia.  i was so disappointed in myself that i didn't take him earlier.  but, i was thankful that i listened to my mommy instinct.   

keenan woke up this morning and his lips were bloody cracked, and he def. was miserable.  i absolutely hate seeing him like this.  its his first time really being sick and it pains me more than him.  i'm mentally trying to stay calm for the sake of all of us.  though it may seem i am overreacting sometimes, i can't help it if i just want my baby back to normal.  he has been so attached to his daddy lately he didn't even want me this morning.  he kept asking for daddy and was crying so much.  it broke my heart because Walley works 12hrs and he hardly ever gets a break.  it's tough because a lot of times i still feel like a single mother. 

i'm so glad i still have my family to talk to.  they can put up with the shit i give them sometimes.  that's what family is for i suppose.  i miss being around them because it doesn't feel so lonely.  as of right now keenan is feeling a bit better. 

i need to learn how to stand up for myself more geez.  ugh. 

2 comments:

Christy said...

oh no! i hope keenan gets better soon. it's terrible when a loved one is sick, especially your kid. i don't have kids (yet!), but i do help babysit an 11month old sometimes and when he's not feeling well and crying because of it, i feel so helpless because i can't make him feel better.

i'm glad that you followed your instinct and caught the pneumonia early.. yay for mommy intuition.

Dirt On The Rocks said...

poor keenan. a sick baby is just the worse. i do hope he feels better. being a single mom having to care for ryu when he's not feeling well can be stressful when i have no one to help me out. i can completely relate to how you feel. family definitely is always going to be there for you and i'm glad that you have that support from your family.