There are many things i'd like to do with my life like learn how to play the drums and go on tour with a crazy rock band, work behind the scenes for big film productions, learn how to sew and create designs.
I don't know, as you can see, I like to learn. Even though I hated high school, I like to learn things that interest me. I'm a fast learner, but something always holds me back. There's a good number of things that hold me back actually, but the main one is fear. I am easily discouraged and usually when I fail, I FAIL. Well at least to me, like in my earlier post, I put a lot of pressure on myself to try to perfect something.
I know my husband doubts me and the sad part is I prove him right. He should support me, but I honestly don't know what he wants me to do. He's not the happiest about my career of choice, but he says okay. I know he loves me being a stay at home mom/wife, but when I see people move on with their lives, it makes me want to get out and do something I love.
I just need to believe in myself more. I feel like i've failed in many fields as far as trying to make my parents proud, finishing college, finishing anything really. I just have so much going on in my mind, if I don't write down a list, i'm all over the place. ..like I physically have to write down a list of what I have to do set myself straight. *sigh*
I'm an onion, you have to keep peeling back the layers.